7th November 2018

"Have you established your career, gotten a reliable partner, built a home? Time is running out."

Career? - no

Partner? - no

Built a home? - no

Time is running out- yes.

Hopeless case at this age. Lol
成家立业，已经不在字典里。。

11th Aug 2018

Why Strong People Feel Broken Inside

You smile a lot. People meet you for the first time and also many friends often mention the same thing. Your energy is infectious, you crack the lamest jokes and full of joy having you around. You’re silly and a little loud; every photo you’re seen laughing or grinning.

Because when you’re the happy person, when you’re the smiley social butterfly, no one expects you to be hurting inside.

No one assumes there are things that go beyond the exterior. No one thinks there’s pain past the friendly outside.
When people see you as a happy person, it’s difficult to want to open up. You don’t fit into their narrow expectation, you don't want them to worry, you don't want them to see you cry, to see that vulnerable side on you. It feels like you have to struggle in silence. Would you be disappointing them if they knew the truth? Would they look at you differently?

So, you don’t say anything. You go out. You text friends back happily. You show up to brunch and laugh with all your friends.You continue being the happy, smiley, giggly person everyone knows.
To the outside world, you look so happy, so cheerful. You're always looking so happy on the surface. But when you're back home behind closed doors, you hit back to reality with the four cold walls surrounding you, that empty house, that quiet night sky after lights out, you lie down thinking a lot about life and perhaps secretly teared when nobody is looking.

You never let anyone catch you when you're vulnerable.

Happy 30th Birthday to myself.

All I wished for every year, is for everything to get better.

14th June 2018

赛跑时跑得比别人慢不要气馁，自愧弗如；最后的胜利者，不一定是那位当初排名最后进度最慢的那个。一步一步来坚持不懈，也有超过强者的可能。即使最后没超越任何人也没关系，自己努力地跑到了终点已经是赢家。:)

Happy 29th Birthday to the annoying you.

Wishing you a life full of happiness. ☺

9th March 2018

1. You were always the first person who had to leave when everyone was hanging out.

2. Asking permission for a sleepover at your friend’s house took 37 hours of mental preparation, a detailed powerpoint presentation of your friend’s family tree, and a signed contract in your blood saying you wouldn’t drink and would be in bed by 10pm.

3. Whenever your friends would make plans for later that night, you knew your parents would say no because it literally took them 2-3 business days to process whether they would allow you to go out.

4. You would practice asking your parents for permission to do something in the mirror and preemptively come up with answers to questions you knew they’d ask

5. You also always had to wait until they were in a good mood before asking for anything.

6. You sometimes whipped out the wounded puppy look and would sigh and say “never mind… you’re going to say no anyway” to garner sympathy from your parents before asking for a really big favor.

7. You would ask your parents once, and only once, if you could hang out at someone’s house. You never understood why your friends would think that “asking them again” would make any difference.

8. You always had to choose between going out on either Friday or Saturday night because there’s no way your parents were going to agree to both.

9. You understand THE PURE, UNADULTERATED PANIC that channels through your veins when your idiot friends change the plans 10 times and you have to keep reexplaining to your parents what you’re doing.

10. You white-lied constantly to your parents. Not that you want to, but you do not have a choice.

11. You never cursed until you got to college.

12. You never had “The Talk” with your parents. They probably left a book on your bed about your ~changing body~ and let you figure it out.

13. Family dinner conversations revolved around your academics and class schedule— never about your social or love life. As far as your parents were concerned, you didn’t have either.

14. To this day, you still can’t get dressed without wondering what your parents would think about what you’re wearing. Middle and high school were a 7 year war over whether that skirt was too short or if the words on your Abercrombie shirt were too suggestive.

15. Getting one piercing in your ears was the extent of what you could do to your body. If you even thought about dying your hair an unconventional color, getting a tattoo, or even getting a second piercing, hell would freeze over.

16. Manners were everything. You got the “I don’t want people to think you were raised by wolves” speech almost as often as the “is your napkin not on your lap at the dinner table? Do you do this at other people’s houses? I can’t let you out in public if you don’t put your napkin on your lap” lecture.

17. You’ve spent years dreaming of rebellion in the form of making spontaneous plans or wearing flip flops to the airport.

18. You’re careful telling jokes to your parents because their response toes the line between laughing along to immediately going off on a 45 minute rant and probably sending you to your room afterwards.

19. If you miss one phone call, your parents suddenly assume you’re smoking “that marijuana” with “that one friend of yours” they KNEW was going to be a bad influence.

一种跌倒叫站起，有一种失落叫收获，有一种失败叫成功。

　　人生就像一条抛物线，不管最高点有多高，最终还是会回到最初的原点。这是人生最大的遗憾，也是最大的公平。

　　

　　很多时候，很多人都会为了某件事情而悔不当初，他们通常会气自己当时为什么没有怎么怎么做之类的话。其实，当事情已经过去的时候。再后悔就太晚了。它不会给我们重来一次的机会，所以，如果想要事后不后悔，就要把握住每一个机会，该出手时就出手。

　　

　　你永远不知道哪一个石头丢进海里会掀起大风浪，只要我们年轻就有资本疯狂地奔跑，就算华丽地跌倒，我们可以没钱，可以没事业，但就不能没信心，所以不要挑剔工作。更不要排斥与任何人合作，要懂得珍惜机会。卑微的梦想持续燃烧也能成就一段不凡的人生。

　　

　　我们不知道我们现在做的哪些是对的，哪些是错的。而当我们终于老死的时候我们才知道这些，所以我们现在所做的就是尽力做好每一件事。能得到的要努力，得不到的不介意，这样无论输赢，姿态都好看，把握每一个机会，找出自己想要的到底是什么，明确自己的目标和方向并为之去奋斗。我们就不枉此生了。把握每一个机会，希望与信心就会并存，心存希望就会让我们不再迷茫，就算没了希望也别绝望，死路往往也是一个出口, 只要我们有信心。

　　

　　懂得珍惜把握每一个机会，就应该勤奋，勤奋并不需要有推动力，只要你能欣赏人生。你能欣赏日出日落。你懂得珍惜，你自然会勤奋，因为你不会也不希望错过生命送给你的每一个机会！只要你心存希望与信心。